It's Okay! (Definitely NOT Okay)
Growing up, negative emotions were never allowed in my home. Whenever I was mad, I was shut down, and my anger was invalidated. Whenever I was sad, I was told to stop crying, and just breathe. My parents cultivated an almost warlike environment, with my father's battalion of negativity being combatted by my mother's force of toxic positivity. Never have I had a sense of comfortability within my home, although I pathetically sought it constantly, acting as the mediator for my parents throughout my entire life. After much reflection, and many therapy sessions, I have come to the conclusion that these circumstances have effected me profoundly. For one, I struggle immensely to confess my true feelings to people, due to a looming fear of rejection. Additionally, this fear leads me to pushing down my feelings. or succumbing to the desires of others despite my own objections. Today, I would like to explore these struggles of mine on a deeper level, ************...