Contemporarily In Color

     I recently saw a post on Instagram that stated how people pleasers cause their own demise because they will never feel like their love and actions are being reciprocated. After I read that, I thought to myself, Damn. You got me.  Ever since I was a child, I have always felt an incessant need to make sure everyone around me was happy or satisfied. I wanted everyone to like me. I wanted to be funny and sweet, someone that everybody wanted to be around. I molded my personality and behaviors to match those around me, agreeing with their opinions and preferences. I so desperately wanted to be someone people could be comfortable around, and yet, my deep self-loathing and insecurities had caused this want to become so much more debilitating than it may appear.       I now know that the term for what I am is a people pleaser, and although I see this terminology thrown around a lot, I do not think a lot of those using it truly understand how deep it ...

    Well, well, well. Guess who's back?      I did it again. I went way too long without posting on here. To be fair, I've been swamped with schoolwork and responsibilities, was sick for about 2 weeks straight, and have been struggling quite a bit. But I know none of this is an excuse, especially since I promised the last time that I would do my best to keep up with this. I need an outlet. So, I'm back, and I wanted to start by giving a brief update on my life before diving into the main topic for today.       As I mentioned, I've been very busy with my university coursework. I have begun student teaching twice a week this semester. I really enjoy the kids, and they love me. It has been going very well, but at the same time, I have felt a deep anxiety when I'm at school. I'm still not quite sure what's causing it, but sometimes I'll feel it lingering in my chest, and I'm just not quite sure how to handle it. Hopefully, it will dissipate befor...