Contemporarily In Color

      WARNING : There will be some sexual discussion in this post, but there will be nothing too detailed.      Growing up, I never knew I was gay. Sure, I found myself looking at girls in the way that I was supposed to look at guys, but to me, it was merely envy. I thought it was my insecurities, forcing me to stare and think, "Wow, she is absolutely beautiful. I wish I looked like her". Perhaps that was true. Sometimes, it may have been envy. But mainly, it was desire. I wanted to be with these girls in the way "normal" girls wanted to be with boys. I didn't realize this, however, until much later in life. I didn't even begin considering the fact that I may be queer until I was 16. Then, I didn't accept it until I was 18. I didn't even fully come to terms with the fact that I was a lesbian until 2 years ago. To put it frankly, my journey to figuring out my sexuality has not exactly been simple. In fact, I'm still figuring it out. And that is w...

         Well, we made it! 2023 is officially over, and, damn, I have a lot to reflect on. I know it's March, and far from the new year. I'm sorry!! I've been so busy, and have had this post in the drafts for quite a long time now. However, I found some time today and knew it was time to finish this post. So many things have happened in my life this past year. In this post, I hope to recount my year and reframe the experiences in terms of my third year of adulthood. This may be a long post, but I have a lot to say, and I truly feel like I have had growth in so many areas this year. I'm excited to share this look-back with you all.  ***********     In January of 2023, I left a job that I had been at for over a year. This was a big step for me, because I decided to stand up for my morals instead of being silent. I refused to stay employed at a place that didn't want me. This wasn't the only reason for my departure, but it was a huge one. I also...