Work In Progress

    I have always been a creative person. I was particularly gifted at a young age, reading full chapter books by the age of 7. My love of reading sparked my interest in writing. In the desk which sits in the family room of my parents' house, there sit dozens upon dozens of short stories and poems which I have written throughout my life, from age 7 all the way up to age 14. Of course, after I hit that age, I began to keep my writing private, as most teens do. I expressed my creativity not only through writing but through music as well. I was in band throughout all of my adolescence, learning every instrument I possibly could and auditioning for as many honor bands as I was able. Currently, I believe I am able to play seven instruments at an intermediate level.

    You may be wondering why I decided to start this project by discussing my creative endeavors, especially in a way that seems rather arrogant. Well, I'll explain. The Covid Pandemic hit the world right as I was about to graduate high school, merely 1 month after my 18th birthday. This pandemic, as it did for many, redirected the entire trajectory of my life. I lost friends, ended a relationship, and discovered things about myself and my identity that I may have never even considered otherwise. Ever since the beginning of the pandemic, I have found myself lacking not only a creative outlet but inspiration. I have not been in a band in over 2 years and lack the motivation to join one, despite my love of music. I have barely written any journals, and the poems that I HAVE written are uninspired at best. I realized that I needed a new outlet, a new place to share my thoughts, my journey through adulthood - life, love, pain. That's when I got the idea to start a blog. THIS blog.

    When I decided to create this blog, I knew I wanted it to be more than just a place for me to talk about trivial experiences. I wanted it to be a place where I could share intellectual thoughts and have emotional conversations with myself. I wanted it to be a place that I could come back to and reminisce on my journey through adulthood - a place for me to record my existence as I learn and awaken, as my life transitions from black and white into color. That's why I decided to name this blog "Contemporarily In Color." I will act as a scribe for myself, writing down these thoughts, events, emotions, and learning moments that I experience as I make the biggest life transition - my contemporary life coming into color.

    In my first posts, I plan to create a sort of memoir of the last 3 years of my adulthood journey, as I am starting this blog a bit late. However, I would like to end this first post by saying that I am a work-in-progress. My opinions are not perfect, I am no expert on anything. I am not a deity or a historian. I am not in a perfect mental state, and I am not sure if I ever will be. I am not the perfect activist, friend, sister, daughter, girlfriend, anything. I am learning every day, as we all are. We can get lost in perfectionism, but it is important that we remind ourselves that we are all a work-in-progress.

I look forward to continuing with this soon. I already feel a little lighter. Thank you for reading, and I'll see you soon. XOXO

- Rach


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