Contemporarily In Color

     "The chameleon changes color to match the Earth, but the Earth does not change color to match the chameleon." - African Proverb     Metaphors are awesome. We all know how ridiculously convoluted the English language is. However, metaphor is one of the best aspects of it. How nice is it, to describe thoughts, feelings, and experiences? In such a simplistic manner? To not have to worry about explaining yourself, because you can just compare it to an already existing aspect of life that others are already aware of. What a simple, gratifying tool. I love using metaphors. Both in my writing, and in my daily conversations. They have become a notable element of how I use language.      I decided to start this by discussing why I love metaphors because this entire blog is basically going to be one huge one. I debated in my head how I wanted to describe how I felt, as I have approached this topic in the past by using a different metapho...

           My journey through adulthood thus far has been a rocky one. I have found myself at the lowest of lows, AND the highest of highs. Since 2020. I have used each year to slowly better myself, through self-reflection, mindfulness, research, etc. Each year, I have learned something new about my identity, and I truly believe that I have tried my hardest to be the best possible version of myself. With all that being said, there is still so much more left for me to learn. I still am unsure who I am now that I've grown so much. My hobbies and interests have changed substantially since I was a child, but I really haven't found the time- well, I haven't TAKEN the time I need to figure out what I am interested in NOW. I love a lot of the same things I did growing up, but I haven't explored many different things, or even figured out any goals that I have for myself now. I decided that 2023 was going to be the year I would do that.      We are ab...

      I am currently sitting in my bed, at 10:54pm. I am writing these words, thinking about where to even begin when writing about the experience during 2022. A year ago today, I would never have even imagined I'd be in the position I am right now. Not laying in my bed, that is pretty predictable haha. I mean mentally, physically, spiritually. In all the ways that matter.       I am working at a job I would've never guessed I'd be applying for. I am in a healthy relationship with a person whom I love, I am taking a class that will finish my second degree. The weather is gorgeous,  I've been seeing my friends often, and I am...happy. I feel like the June 2022 version of myself would've never expected this. Yet, she was a huge reason why I am in the position I am in now. SHE changed. She worked on herself. She worked through trauma. She took risks. She PUT HERSELF FIRST. In 2022, I developed a new view of life, love, and of myself. So much happened...